RANT: WHY PATIENCE IS A FUCKING JOKE

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Alright – I woke up today in a bitching mood — and not in a good way.  So in order for me to settle into the day, I’m going to need to get a few things off my chest.

I work my ass off.  Anyone who knows me knows that I give 110% in anything and everything I do.  It’s part of my DNA.  My dad is a crazy work-aholic and, for better or worse, it was instilled into me.  I always have an end-game and I take strategic steps to get to that end-game — lately, though, my end-game journey has been stunted and I’m seriously frustrated with it.  Here’s where I need to be really vague for the sake of self-preservation:  I need people around me to stimulate ideas and be willing to take the steps to get that shit going.  People who stand the fuck around and wait for shit to happen piss me off.  So when I’m putting effort into something, I want the people around me who’s job it is to collaborate with me to push the envelope.  If I’m fighting for it, and their star is hitched to mine, then they need to understand gravitational pull REAL QUICK.  Don’t NOT do something because you’re scared.  Put on your waders and get into this shit with me…Or I’m out. And trust me, where my head has been lately, I’m OUT.

Being a strong, independent, willful female in this world is probably the hardest job I’ve ever had.  Because the expectations I place on myself, versus those of, say, the world, are the hardest to live up to.  I’m on a daily struggle with maintaining being a successful individual while juggling the constant battle of managing idiots that surround my world.  I don’t feel entitled or have an inflated sense of self  – I know my worth.  The shit of it all is trying to find a balance of accepting that some people around you are just a lost cause and having to live with that knowledge until you can actually do something about it.  Patience is NOT a fucking virtue in this sense.  It’s annoying and can kiss my ass.

Ok.  Off rant.  I feel better.  It’s a super vague post that I’m sure some of you can identify with.  It’s not my normal, lofty, sarcastic topics — but it’s meaningful and I’m sure later this week I can go back to being funny.  Meanwhile, if you take ANYTHING away from this post, know this:  You have a responsibility in this life to be the best version of YOU as possible…If your best version is lazy and is hindering others from becoming the best version of THEMSELVES, might I suggest a shot of cyanide and a comfy pillow to lay down on…cuz you’re just wasting mine and other people’s time.  #sorrynotsorry

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